black 2


Sunday, March 29, 2009
invisibility 9:13 PM

uncle leong texted me just now, "mei mei, dad give u $300 ok?"

he called awhile later and said, "hey i'll pass the money to ur mum so u can use it for shopping."

later mum came into room and said, "oh ya uncle says he wanna give u money because u never work."

then i replied, "HUH."


im actually taking my monthly allowance from him already and it really feels kinda uncomfy taking so much from him for nothing.

i know i always say "wah so good to have a sugar daddy giving me money for nothing everytime" and yah i was indeed happy last time but now, not really..

why?
im also not sure why.
i think its because im just too afraid if someone treats me so good, too good.
i will scared but still, i should be happy right?
got extra money in my pocket now :)

alright, go off whatever bad thoughts.





btw, i think im really invisible now.
hahahahahahahahahaha pathetic little creature, is me.

bye bye.

Saturday, March 28, 2009
my area 2:48 PM

accompanied mindy to bring her laptop to jurong east acer building ystd..

she was sick, she became blank, like totally.
i was so sad for her :(

HAHAHA her laptop is sick!

see mindy so sadddd......
(P.S: background looks like hospital can)



5 days to repair and she is happy already cause her laptop is resting well at sickbay LOL!


on bus 51(uber long journey) to queensway..
yes, to ikea to buy my frame, again (-_-)!
we passed by har paw villa!
omg i almost forgot that such place actually existed in singapore!



but anyway, dont u people think that the exterior design looks like the chunk of meat from cartoon flintstone?
HAHA, i really do think so.



and flintstone is my favorite cartoon when i was young, top favorite. :)))


well we finally reached ikea!



and my frame and picture is done :)
dont say i act yi ge, but this is cool can hahahaha!



and and and, i received my platform plan from the designer already!
my room will be like this cause i told mummy,

"i want platform with a bed and desk cause i dont want any chairs in my room :)"







i think im starting to love myself more therefore i dont want to love any other one else.
im at my own area, now. :)

october 1:58 AM

im actually reading through those first fmsgs now and smiling at them when i recalled how the magic starts to work..

but once again, i had to keep reminding myself something which is the fact..
no, u didnt treat me fair.

a reason to live.

to come and think of it, i shouldnt be afraid if u ever see what i wrote about u recently because, u'll never.
what we had was really short-lived and it was too long ago , u wouldnt had even bothered to stumble upon my blog.
im always self-confusing myself with a past.
u which is a past, a long 6 months past.
gosh, how time pass!
but now all i want to say is..


i dont wanna be in love :)

Thursday, March 26, 2009
123 11:04 PM

3 posts in one day, u can tell that my boring-level at home is kinda high eh, boo.

anyway i finally found out how to make a photo-animation into my blog.

yuan lai is upload the animated gif format picture into photobucket and then copy the html code and paste it into ur blog one's jiu ke yi le la!
chey..................
no wonder it keeps failing to work when i upload the picture straight from the add image window.


i know im slow but still, oh oh oh oh i made it haha!

Photobucket

lucky, unlucky. 5:09 PM

flipping through some past entries, lots of thoughts are wandering in my mind now..

i always thought that life is fair, bad people, will have a bad ending.
however people always say that life is unfair.

but still..

"devil, i wish u hell." ;) *twink*





i guess that ure returning on fri, which is tml.
i know im stupid of typing these here, cause what if u saw it and it'll be so awkward for me.
but id no idea why id been thinking about u so much lately.
its like, day by day memories just kept haunting me.

no doubt that this feeling made me felt bloody useless.
maybe they're right, thats because id no one in mind now therefore i think about the past.
i hope that they are really right.
i know i had to move on, look out for new people, and stop looking back.

i always said goodbye first but why am i always the one who cant let go eventually?

bugis shit 3:01 AM

wednesday means yesterday

didnt plan to club at all because, i quitted clubbing.
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.......................................................nah, i was just joking ;) *twink*

met bai ka min in the noon as we hurried down to bras basah for the printing of my picture.


nice stairs


the shop


while waiting outside the shop..
bai ka min said i looked like him!
wth?!?
hahahahaha idiot leh really say i looked like a fat chef~~~



and so i said, "u looked like him la!"
LOL!
i couldnt find any off picture in the shop except this.
sorry to this man but no offence okay :) *twink*



went opp coffeeshop to eat and hello nice colors


pu hui and bai ka


my fish mian xian


after 1 hour, we went back to collect the picture.
to my surprise, the person actually left his fingerprints on my picture!
not 1 or 2 leh, its like, 7 or 8!
ahhh nice...................

i didnt confront him back because i rather cleaned them off myself.
(actually its because i didnt want to be treated as a fussy customer la LOL)

seriously, what is his brain doing?
how can a printing shop serve customers fingerprinted pictures without realising it?
i thought they ought to be experienced in handling such stuffs.

alright..
i know i anger with little provocation but thats because im well known for being a PERFECTIONIST.
or u can say im, "ying chim".
thats hokkien saying for being fussy over minor stuffs haha.

therefore i really couldnt withstand such little mistake which actually spoilt my whole picture.
okay sorry i dont meant to be mean but aiya, sometimes shit happens.
got home and was really anxious of putting the picture into the frame after cleaning it thoroughly.
best best best, i accidentally broke the glass.

HAHAHAHAHA shit really happens!



sobs :(
no choice, im gonna head down to ikea again later to buy this $29 frame with bai ka.
sad case ah.




btw today i saw a ren yao look-a-like walking on the street.
its definately not a big matter as they are alot of ren yaos out there in the streets.
however, this is a special case.

bai ka said, "tung dont say i bad or what, but are u sure its a ren yao?"
and i said, "ya i think so."

after some scanning, we kept laughing about it after ren yao is gone.

this ren yao is really scary.
do u people know why?
its because this ren yao is not a man.
hmmm..what a dilema right?
actually.......................................she's a woman who looks like a ren yao!
LOL.

anyway, u all dont say im bad or what okay :(
as in the way i described above is like im mocking ren yao.
im not, im totally open-minded about gays/lesbians, or even ren yaos.

i think that its totally each freedom of choosing what gender u want to be as long as u are happy.

no hard feelings but i just got shocked by her.




i love my watercolor dress!



what about a for apple
what about m for miss
what about s for suck
and what about l for love

Wednesday, March 25, 2009
this, that, or u? 1:20 PM

it was monday, our ikea night.
hangouts with them simply, ROCKS. :) :) :) :)
we went giant aftermath.

btw, we gotten new nicknames for ourselfs!

jac: tung pu hui
sim: sim lao kang
mindy: bai ka min
meiyi: ho xue mo

TOTAL OFF NAMES ESPECIALLY MINE.........................
not fair humph.
LOL.








frame, bought!


WOW, im really this short.
a 50 x 70 cm frame actually covered 1/3 of me.



girls companied me to ikea because i was finding a new frame for my new picture for my new room!
im going bras basah later for printing in a few hours time already but i still cant decide which to print out..

why why why?
cause i love both and i couldnt make up my mind.
black one is more stylish but red one is more pleasing to eyes.

and oh yea thanks bai ka min for the help loves!

the black


or the red?


ahh..headache.



this song, rocks.

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again
Cuz we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
Maybe I was stupid
For telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong
For tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you
Cuz we belong together now, (yeah)
Forever united here somehow, (yeah)
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go,
Oh yeah

Sunday, March 22, 2009
wake up! 11:45 PM

the more u think about someone
the more u should make urself to think about the person even more
because the more u wanna run away from it
the more u cant


qngytniawaiadne
i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u

Saturday, March 21, 2009
rebel leber 10:08 PM

wed night went to rebel but this time only both of us went as the other 2 dear girls cant make it.
music, sama sama only.
S, not much.
A, present again and so it sucks again.

kaya called and asked if i wanna hit down to homeclub on thurs but i couldnt make it/didnt wanna go cause im really having too many late nights recently and pimples are popping out like nobody business already hell crap.

i need to have a healthier lifestyle, like seriously! :)

and this means less parties and more water and more water.


bringing my sprained hand to party, power leh? LOL yeah on our way to woo hoo!


headband makes ur head spins right round


then crazy


in the club yo


i always had lots of fun when my girls are around!


btw..

consolation prize kept haunting onto me like a nightmare.

though its just a casual remark from others, u must be thinking why bother so much?
no no no, when this happens on u, u'll know why IT bothers so much.




i dont mind being ugly betty, at least she is totally not empty.


Wednesday, March 18, 2009
where are u 1:00 AM

face mask to cover my lost face



like my elephants?
i know they are very cute, just like me.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA siao.



sometimes its nice to have a simple and peaceful life.
BUT, i dont suit in this kind of lifestyle, like seriously..spice is more me.

wah ha!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009
thai girl boxer watching thai movie 1:09 AM

Monday march 16

quote of the day by jac: "left hand is as important as right hand.."




my current hand looked like thai boxing hand?!?!?!?!!! (idiot sim..)
LOL.

went town with girls and caught COMING SOON together.
not very scary, just that the chaba very irritating cause she kept ahh ahh ahh scared shane.
in the midde-end of the movie, chaba was chasing after shane and he quickly shuts the door leaving her outside screaming.

then i turned to the already-frightend-sim and ask her: "do u know why chaba so angry with shane?"

she says: "dont joke leh.."

i said: "cause he hurts her hand by closing the door too fast so next time u close door must be careful if not chaba.............."

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

the joke part is, chaba's left hand was bandaged too.
so it was like hello, im chaba tung.

i felt love today :)

gfs were very tender towards me because im injured.
even the cleaner auntie at food court told me to take care and the uncle selling mixed rice told me not to eat the egg i was going to order because it will make my wound yellow or something.


awwwwwhhhhhhh......maybe this fall is good. :)))


Monday, March 16, 2009
my face gone when i fell 1:25 AM

hi people well well something really NICE happened on my saturday night(just the 2nd day of work)!

1.50am, saw alot of people outside and i suppose they're gg clubbing.
felt kinda sian because i suppose to be "them", clubbing on a saturday night yet i was working.
however, i was happy because i can soon knock off after cleaning the popcorn machine for like very very long already.
yes, im like on my way to the kitchen to take the cloth to finish the last cleaning together with a really nice girl.

floor was wet and my cheap lousy black shoes made me SLIPPED, ASS HIT ON GROUND FIRST, LEFT ELBOW KNOCKED RIGHT ONTO FLOOR, WRIST TWISTED.

perfect.............................................

my tears uncontrollably rolled down leaving me in a shock on the floor before my colleagues picked me up.
at first it was okay until a few minutes passed i felt the sharp pain causing my tears to drop even more.

here's what the best part is..

went to the manager room and told him i fell down and that i need to go home right away.
in the room, 10 people at least?
some managers, full-timers, and part-timers.

so many people know i fell and saw me cried like an idiot seriously i felt more paiseh than painful at that moment of time :(

cabbed home, still crying, got home, still crying, lying on bed, still crying.
woke up, eyes like ghost, swollen like shit.
i dont even dare to look at myself in the mirror.
actually i also dont know why i cried so much?
i think i very long never cry already so at one go all tears come out.
yes, it must be.

next morning mum brought me to see sinseh.
got bandaged and right now my left hand is equivalent to, USELESS.

will be resting for a week while waiting for mindy to see if she's being employed too if not haha, bye bye.

seriously, i prefer living my taitai life.
staying at home when i feel like "oh its a rest at home day!".
going shopping and watching movies whenever i like.
going clubbing when i just feel like to!
call me a spoilt girl or whatsoever, i think i really like this name now.

:)


oh choong's POP pictures!

super hot commander

















i love this picture ALOT






his mum and him


buddies forever




life is all about being happy.

Friday, March 13, 2009
REBEL 12:43 AM

rebel was hell great!

1. dancefloor good good not too squeezy but wasnt empty at all
2. people good good not too young not too old as all were around our age (u wont want people who aged 15 or 30 plus dancing beside u right)
3. only a few total off guys who were desperate of grinding (as compared to other clubs)


and such an coincidence as we saw a few xinmin ppl in the dancefloor.
guess what, one of them is.....................................the first guy i had a crush on during secondary days.
cant rmb clearly but i think i was like in sec 2?

he really looks cute that time, with braces on somemore.
rich, rich and rich cause he's a indonesian-chinese.
kinda a hot favorite among the girls in our sch.

crushed on him for about 6 months and it stops immediately after i heard some really bad things about him and i almost puke just thinking of how i actually liked him.
ouch..

well his friend and him basically never dance at all.
totally no idea why did they even come to club as they were really "just standing" on the dancefloor.
LOL.

not to be thick-skinned or whatsoever, but he really did kept looking at me.
gfs noticed and told me and i told them yeah i know haha.
he walked towards me a couple of times and look at me right into the face wanting to say hi i suppose but i didnt bother and gfs and me just dance!
the sight of him just reminds me something, PLAYBOY.

anyway in the club..

i noticed this particular guy who really looks like A.
i felt very lousy aftermath because i cant stop my eyes looking at him.
its been a really long time but people who resembles A still kinda affects me.
its not i still like him or what its just that, it stills affects quite abit of me.

i just feel like a lousy piece of shit.

my life is too peaceful and im really unused to it..
a little drama-adding, is it okay?

hahahahaha what a lame chop i am.


ENJOY THE PICTURES:
































idiot candid LOL



okay, gotta wake up at 6 am for choong's POP.
reporting work at 3pm and it ends at 12am!
holy crap of 18 hours out, i hope i wont KO tml.
goody night :)