OLD MISS TUNG

after school, dragged poor mindy with her dumpling leg with me to buy a new loafers for myself and trim my fringe so that it can go side easier.

tada, i threw away my old one(though it was just 70% old) and placed this new one on my shoe rack.

wasteful huh, well i dont really care.

i just feel like throwing something away today.

though its just a shoe, i actually forced myself to pump a love-related thinking into my mind.

"since new one comes, why bother about the old?"

u'll know what im thinking about, if u were me.

this is my life, i control the way i think.

its all up to me, i know.

wahhhhh..

ra ra ing words in my little space here is the next best thing i can do to release bad feelings throughout the day.
i feel better now :)

ALONE
i feel alone recently, or maybe its me who wanted to be alone for awhile.

dont be mistaken, i know my girls are out there and i can reach to them whenever i want because they'll be there.

i love meiyi, because she spares her time for me whenever i called for help even she had a bf to accompany.

i love mindy, because she listens to my problems even when i repeated it for quite a few times throughout the day.

i love sim, because she'll pick me up whenever i fall.

to sim:

i dont know when u'll see this because u dont see my blog oftenly :(

but, just wanted to let u know i feel really sad because we are in a rocky stage now.

we'll pass it through i know, and i hope u love me as much still.

hope u like the little card and toblerone i put outside ur house.

next time when we meet up, please give me a hug!

i need it so much from u darling :)

take it, or leave it.

each day, the thought of smoking is getting stronger and stronger.

i had no idea why i wanted to smoke so badly recently.

i even attempted to buy the first pack of cigarettes for myself that day but i walked out from 7-11 straight after realising that i'll start smoking if i ever bought that very first pack.

in fact, i hate the smell of cigarettes.

however, when i smoke i dont feel the smell, u get it?

but dont worry, i'll force the thought out of my head, soon.

i just need some time!

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ROCK IT!