OLD MISS TUNG

happy 21st birthday to my dear HO MEI YI!!!
had chalet at aloha loyang on last fri and stayed up til the next day.
had lotsa fun!
eat talk play and just a few cups of vodka made me drunk...........................
in the end i kept eating ice cubes and kept putting ice cubes into people's mouth asking them to eat too.....
so embarrassing i dont even know why im doing that..
i just wanna eat ice ice baby i think.
cool down cool down!

marcus, sim and all took pictures and videos of me when im drunk and well im not gonna post it up here because i think i looked really lame (-_-")

i wont say im totally drunk..
only 70% high but definately not serious drunk kind.
i want to get really drunk but they wont allow me to drink any further because they kept saying "she's gone she's gone" already.
sad case..ended up its not me who got drunk, its sim.
we took care of her during the night and she felt alot better in the next morning.

when we're playing poker i got really high after the liquor..
i cant stop laughing and when i laughed to the maximum point..i actually almost cried out.
i dont know why.
the feeling is like omg ure so happy and high but suddenly u felt so sad and just wanted to cry ur lungs out, intestines out, kidneys out, liver out and heart out.
luckily i controlled well and my eyes sucked all the tears back and only rolled down a few pathetic drops.
its like "happy tears" as what they called but for me its like the "real tears"..
okay im a sad case right i know.

recently my mood was so seriously F up and i think i really need lots of entertainment, whatever it could be.
fake ones, real ones, i dont really care.

today i told mindy in the bus, that im really curious of some feelings what others could had felt before.
the thrill in two-timing someone?
like someone for some time but suddenly dont like anymore on the next day?
dont like someone but just want to use the person to kill time?
ironic isnt it?
human actually torture each another by feeling such feelings..
someday i'll see, and i'll know, how things work in life.
though, i can't explain what u can't explain.

have i found u..i once thought and im wrong.
and im always wrong.
im not down for love, im just down for faith in believing things.
nothing seems right recently, every step i took, didnt take me any far.
i tried so hard and got so far, but in the end, it doesnt even matter.
okay i'll end my sad case now.

be happy at least for now :)

photos taken during the birthday celebration:

nic shot us