OLD MISS TUNG

who will understand how fucked up i felt
when i was told to go bangkok for attachment in the late october in the first place
and plan changed to go at early september
i thought i can celebrate my 21st birthday here
i thought i can attend sim's one here too
who will understand how much i want to celebrate my 21st birthday here in singapore with them around me
greater expectations will lead to greater disappointment
but i know i really have no rights to feel disappointed
because i just don't have the rights
her amount of disappointment is way too much greater than mine
how i hope i can go bangkok in late october
im willing to miss christmas party, miss the countdown of new year 2010, miss the chinese new year with my family, than to miss hers
its hard for people to understand
how sorry i felt to everything
my mother
my best friend
my tears are rushing out typing this post
i think i should stop now